Meth= sorcery part 4

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Steve goes on to explain how chemistry of meth relates  to witch craft and sorcery through the leading of the Holy Spirit. His findings are that the Greeks, Chinese and Indians usually referred to what westerners call alchemy as ” The Art “. by terms denoting change or transmutation (transformation). It’s the beginning of what is called scientific view also preceded alchemy. Which was based on opposite forces —hot and cold positive and negative—- good and evil. Alchemy was always obsessed with the making of gold and also revolved around base metals and a focus theory on the idea that a substance (POWDER) can transform instantly, magically to. Steve also stressed that methamphetamine has to be transformed with some kind of metal—it revolves around this.

This makes so much sense to me, because preparing crack or heroine before smoking or shooting it in your vein you  must use a metal spoon or pop can to mix the (POWDER) with certain other ingredients. I know because I use to cook both before using.  Again, this parallels with meth and  from my experience Steve is correct in his findings through his experience.

Methamphetamine is what Satan has been working on for hundreds and hundreds of years, developing a substance that would transform the human person into the likeness of him. I know this to be true. I was a totally different person when I was in the drug game. I got so caught up in its power over me that I became blind to self destruction of my body, mind and soul. People become ruthless. They steal, lie, cheat others and even to the point of killing others lives mentally and physically.

At one point It turned both Steve Box and I into the complete opposite of Jesus Christ. In the Holy Bible, Paul wrote in Galatians 5:22 The fruits of the Holy Spirit ( characteristics of Jesus himself) which are Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self Control. Against such things there is no law.

The best way I can describe how ugly and ungodly these drugs are is to share how Opposite I really was

Love – I hated myself and therefore didn’t care about all the lives I was affecting negatively, so if I didn’t Love myself I couldn’t really truly Love another nor did I feel like I could be loved by anyone EVEN GOD. I always thought He was angry and hated me for what I was doing, not knowing the unconditional Love of Christ is always I Love You “WHEN” you sin and not I Love You “IF” you do or do not sin.

Joy – I had no real Joy because I was too busy chasing my next high to where it consumed my every thought and deed. After coming down off the high I felt so guilty and sad that it transformed me sometimes into a hopeless zombie.

Peace – I had none because I knew what I was doing was bad and deep down all of us druggies know it’s all evil.

Patience – I had none. nor have I ever met a dealer/user who did. A roller coaster of cat and mouse but always feeling like I was prey to an unseen evil force. It blinded me into thinking that the police, family or even God was the threat of taking it away from me, and I couldn’t possibly live without it by dismissing what it was doing to me by thinking,”Oh well, everyone does it.” Or, “I can stop when ever I want cuz it aint got no control over me.” Besides gotta make that money so I might as well do a lil somethin, somethin to keep me going and get paid!

Kindness – The only kindness I’ve seen is sharing your dope to keep the high going and sometimes even that is deceived as ” awe you care… you gave me some dope for free so therefore you must really like or love me.

Goodness -I have seen some really good people fall into this lifestyle, but it is the complete opposite of what good stands for because NOTHING GOOD ever comes out of this lifestyle. You never meet a longtime drug dealer/user because they don’t exist due to them being Dead or Incarcerated for life.

Gentleness – I became so hardhearted. I carried a gun, fist fought at the drop of a dirty look or word.There was nothing about me that read gentle. In fact I was aggressive, hateful and mean.

Self-control – Huh? Whats that? you re-read these first seven and then you tell me where self-control fits in?

Now if drugs like Meth, Cocaine and Heroin are not the work of satan then maybe you need to ask yourself,  “AM I ALSO BLIND TO THE SCHEMES AND EVIL DONE BY SATAN?”


Meth= Sorcery Part 3

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Steve Box and his wife lost their two-year-old child in a car crash, leaving them to grieve with his wife crying herself to sleep countless nights while deep down blaming Steve for their son’s death. Thank God, they attended church where they were saved.

In The Gospel of John it says in verse 3:16-17 For this is how God loved the world: he gave His one and only son, so that everyone who believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life.17 God sent His son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through Him.(NLT)

I’ve known this since I was a little girl, I celebrated Easter and thought all about how Jesus Christ has died for my sins, but up to now I never realized how much this means for so many souls in the world. Steve also wrote a verse from the Holy bible from the book of  Romans 10: 8-10

Eight, in fact, it says:  The message is very close at hand: it is on your lips and in your heart.

And that message is the very message about faith that we preach: 9 If you openly declare that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is by believing in your heart that you are made right with God, and it is by openly declaring your faith that you are saved.

After the death of Steve’s son, he couldn’t handle the pain, so he started to substitute it with worldly things like drugs, people and places to help numb his grief that he was feeling by trying to replace anything that had t had to do with any and every memory of the past. Steve started to commit adultery behind his wife’s back, who he soon left his wife for. This new relationship was not healthy, due to a regular regiment of partying.He was soon dealing drugs while strung out popping pills, drinking heavy and doing crystal meth. He was going 19 days sometimes without sleep, then would finally sleep for one night and back to getting high again. One night in particular stood out. Steve remembers drinking heavy on pills and crystal meth while sitting on his couch. To his horror, his hands and arms locked up curling into a twisted fashion while his body began convulsing uncontrollably in an almost rhythmic fashion that went on for hours.You would have thought that incident would of scared Steve, but within hours he was on his way to more meth. He rarely bathed, and he thrived on the grunge that went along with meth. Steve had become so paranoid on the drug that he carried a magnum 357 at all times along with fighting knives.

I can remember how this paralleled to crack cocaine. I myself seen people put blankets on their windows. Some would turn the lights off as if to hide from whatever was coming for them. Soon, Steve Box started to learn to cook the meth himself. He then started to describe meth and the making of it for what it is SORCERY, and how methamphetamine opens a gateway to the sins that are an abomination ( extreme hate and disgust) to God. Most of the different chemicals used in meth if ingested separately would kill you dead. One popular recipe uses red phosphorus (burnt bones). other chemicals include ephedrine or pseudo ephedrine, muriactic or hydrochloric acid, sulfuric acid, mineral spirits, acetone,camping fuel, iodine crystals or solution, anhydrous amonnia, lithiumor sodium metal, and lye. Each time a batch is produced a certain formula is used which is really a ritual(” a system or form of rites, religious or otherwise”). Rite means a solemn ceremonial act as in religion. Steve continues to explain that in the book of Revelation it says in the end times their would be sorcery. That sorcery is now here.Understand there are other types of sorcery and occult, but the most destructive sorcery that is killing, stealing,and destroying the most lives is Methamphetamine.

The future blogs will show that meth is a tool used by Satan to destroy so many that are enslaved to its power.The desire for the drug is so great that people will do just about anything to get it, and the dealers of this drug are enslaved by the power over others. Again this parallels to cocaine, heroin, and any other drug that empowers a false wealth, money and power Better known as balla, balla, shot calla which means whoever has enough of it has the power to call the shots over other peoples lives. I know becuz I am an ex drug dealer and I had whatever I wanted at other peoples expense.


Meth = Sorcery Demon Possession part 2

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During lock-down hours, I sat thinking about all the domestic violence in my past, and I understood the part that drugs played in my past relationship, but I had more questions for God about the times I was a victim. Like, when I was sexually assaulted at five-years-old, and when an ex-boyfriend held me down while his sisters beat me and then he threw me out of his moving vehicle. I rolled into a ditch, and when I tried to climb out trying to run to safety, he then tried to run me over with his car. I knew I needed to read more of the Bible for me to comprehend it all.

Just then, my cell door opened  and the C.O. called my name. I came out and was led to a small conference room with just a chair and glass that separated us offenders from the other side opposite from the person who came to visit, like lawyers, chaplains, etc.  To my curiosity, it was my lawyer. He began to explain to me that I was facing 14 to 36 years if I took my case to trial. Wow! For 10 Oxycontin sold to a C.I (confidential informant). He told me that if I took a plea bargain he could get me five to six years. I flat out replied, “NO!” The medication was mine, but it wasn’t me who sold them. I did have part in it, and therefore just as guilty. I told him I would consider four years. He then agreed and left.

My counselor came to speak with me right after that. He asked how I was doing, then right before leaving handed me a red paperback book saying. “I believe this is the book you requested.” It was “Meth = Sorcery-Know the Truth” by Steve Box. I automatically flipped it over to read something that convicted my heart.

Steve Box speaks from authority that only comes from a Holy Spirit experience. His burning desire to educate the users of meth amphetamines to its dangers, both physical and spiritual, comes from the nightmare experiences of many years of his own sustained drug use. This first-hand knowledge of the power of the drug, coupled with indwelling of the Holy Spirit, makes a powerful combination with a driving force to spread the truth while there is still time. Steve Box walks you through experiences as well as revealing the POWER that set him free.”

I went to my room right away to read its contents. Due to my old drug life of cocaine and heroin, something stood out and even gave me the chills it read:

Cocaine, Heroin, Meth

ATTENTION: If you read this book and cocaine or heroin was your thing, then every time “Meth” is used replace it with Cocaine and Heroin.

Because: Cocaine/Heroin=Sorcery

Meth use and the production is equivalent to sorcery. The Websters Dictionary definition of sorcery is – the supposed use of a evil supernatural power over people. The Greek Biblical definition is  Pharmakia, where we get our English word  Pharmacy. Steve wrote that this word in Greek also means -the cutting of an herb, poisons or poisoner, and the mixing of a potion.

Revelation 18:23 says . . . for by their sorcerers all nations were deceived. Revelation 21:8 says, But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murders, and whore-mongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters,and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone; which is the second death. (The second death is “HELL”)

It goes on to say that Steve Box is a person gloriously delivered from methamphetamine by our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Through this delivery  he was able to write this book. Meth contains all seven abominations that God hates and is why Satan uses it as a tool for his wicked kingdom. He knows we are living in the last days, and he is deceiving hundreds of souls by destroying, not just their bodies and minds, but their relationship with God. For it is written in Matthew 7:13-14 (NLT)  You can enter God’s kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for many who choose the easy way. But the gate to life is small, and the road is narrow, and only a few find it.

Jesus is talking about two gates. The narrow is the gate to heaven, a lot of people believe in God, but believing there is a God is not enough. You must do His will. Reading the bible will teach as well as transform you from the inside outward because the Holy Bible is TRUTH.

Discernment of The Holy Spirit


Domestic violence plays a big part in society, and as I sat in my cell scales fell from my eyes once again as I was able to see all the abuse for what it really was.

Yea, the drugs were a big cause of it, but the devil was behind it all. Both my ex and I were raised with an abusive parent or relative mentally and physically. Both of us being taught the misconception of what love is suppose to be or not be.

The fact that I loved God but wasn’t truly saved  had me right where Satan wanted me, playing his game, by his rules, on his home field. All built on lies by distorting  God’s word. I knew some things from the Bible. So, Satan was always whispering in my ear degrading words like,”What kind of woman are you? God looks down on divorce you must endure your beatings!”or “No real woman puts up with beatings. Stab him and gain his respect. Beat him at his own game. You are beautiful and just like he has had any woman he wants, YOU CAN HAVE ANY MAN YOU DESIRE.”

We were back and forth for so long, it became a natural part of our relationship. We were Satan’s puppets. Why? Because, the Holy Bible says in the Gospel of JOHN 8:44, For you are the children of the father the devil, and you love to do the evil things he does. He was a murderer from the beginning. He has always hated the truth because there is no truth in him.When he lies it is consistent with his character; for he is a liar and the father of lies. (NLT)

JESUS clearly declares in the GOSPEL OF JOHN 14:6, Jesus answered, I AM the Way and the truth and The Life. No one goes to the father except through me.  After being saved, it became clear to me that I was living a life of unconfessed sin for so long that it was consuming my thoughts. I was playing the devil’s game, because Satan is sin and there can be no repentance in him EVER. I also know what a Godly marriage is suppose to look like. I will start with a few bible verses,then I will sum it up the best way I can from my own experience.

Ephesians 5:25 – Husbands, love your wives, just as God loved the church and gave himself up for her.

Ephesians 5:33 – However, each one of you must love his wife as he loves himself and the wife must respect her husband.

Saying I love you and I trust you are two things that a relationship is built on. You can’t have one with out the other. When you lack love, its hard to trust, and when you don’t trust someone you really can’t fully love them for who they are. You’re opening the door to doubt, that opens the door to fear, and fear as we know unlocks a world of chaos. My X and I fell because we didn’t have Jesus, who is Truth, and therefore we couldn’t trust, because we lost all respect and every ounce of love and dignity we could repair just to destroy it all over again.

A Godly marriage is just that, putting God first, staying in the word and applying what it says to your daily life. Jesus sacrificed himeself for the church. His one true love. His Bride. He adores her, cherishes her,prays for her, intercedes for her, represents her in front of the angels and THE ALMIGHTY GOD THE FATHER, CREATOR OF THE HEAVENS AND THE EARTH. When a man makes that oath to give into marriage in front of God that is the same oath he is taking. Men Love Your Wives as Jesus Loves the Church.

To my sistas out there, you women, your husband not only means he is the man of your home but the spiritual leader: the one to make decisions. In some part provider, in some solely. In other cases, times are hard and some men are laid off or out of work, That doesn’t leave room for slandering, but to build him up. As women, I know we get mad and are verbal. Trust me I was one to cut my X down in front of people too quick, but it damages the relationship beyond repair. Think of how it was was when you first met. Well, that doesn’t have to stop, because when you fall in love with Christ you become transformed from the inside outward and all right relationships flow through Jesus. You love differently because The Holy Spirit gives you His fruits of Love, joy, peace, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control that Can only be supplied from God. Your always going to honor your husband when or when not by his side, because it’s as if you are married to Jesus Christ Himself and you uphold yourself in that type of demeanor. Not saying you are not going to have your trials, because we live in a fallen world, but knowing that The Lord of Lords and King Of Kings is in control of my marrige will help me sleep more peacefully . . . that’s if My Father in Heaven ever wills it to be so. Until then, I am happily celibate . . . hahaha, which is a whole other blog to come.

Flames of Passion

After getting out of seg, I stayed in Max and never returned to  population, because they kept a separation on me and the girl that I got into a fight with. That’s how they do it in Weld County. You never go back to population.
I was waiting for my counselor and searching for this book “Meth = Sorcery” because I knew that God was leading me to it. So, while I was waiting, one of the girls in the pod had some radio earphones that you were able to order on canteen. I was waiting for my mom to send my money. It was so hard watching the other girl eating the meals that you get daily it leaves you so hungry. So anyway I asked one of the girls if I was able to listen to her ear phones while we were in lock-down.
I was listening to the radio and I heard the song come on from Eminem featuring Rihanna. Eminem was talking about domestic violence, and I thought back to the time that me and my husband we’re hitting each other and into drugs. I was thinking back about our relationship. The part that Rihanna’s sings convicted my heart. How you get to a state to wear you love everything about the relationship. It becomes a part of you. Everything about the domestic violence you love. The way he lies, you know that it’s going to happen again,you know he’s going to hit you, but you don’t care. You don’t care because you truly believe that the violence part of it is love. You start to fight back you start to hit him. A pattern starts and sooner or later it becomes the way of life.
So, to all the women out there, a real man should walk away and never put his hands on you,but to my sisters out there you know we don’t have no right putting our hands up to the good men out there who are trying to do right by us either. Real talk-you don’t put hands on on som one you love unless you’re making love , comforting, or making peace. You feel me? Anything else comes from the evil one!
Don’t get me wrong. My situation was different, because drugs was the reason why me and my ex husband put our hands on one another. I literally pretty much clipped him with our car, tried to stab him three times and ended up stabbing him in the head with a fork.


Meth is Demon Possesion

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While being in seg, I got a roommate who also got into an altercation in the population pod. She was a nice woman with a southern accent and boy could she talk. I noticed her arms looked as if they were glossy, like a suttle burn. So I asked her if she had a rare skin condition. I know it was a lil blunt but thats just how I rolled.She began to tell me that her skin on her arms almost melted off becuz she accidently made a bad batch of the drug meth. I told her I tryed it once but didnt like it. t made me feel weird and kept me up for a few days even when I tried to sleep.

We had nothing but time,, so she started to tell me her stories and experiences while being high on meth. It was a trip, because the way she explained it was scary, and deadly, not just taking it but making it. I had no idea that it was household,  poisonous cleaners that are cooked and sifted through gasoline. At least that’s how she made it. She said thats why people who do it have bad sores on their face and body. It’s because the poison is coming out or their pores. She said it makes you feel like your on top of the world, invincible, like your Superman or Wonder Woman at first.

She said that one night with her boyfriend,while driving,they were so high that his hallucination became hers and it was so real he almost shot her with a shotgun rifle. Apparently,while driving high, he thought the DEA ( Drug Enforcement Agency) was coming at them from all sides, driving right behind them. She said she even saw the cop lights flashing all around them. They made it to their house in the country and both were climbing fences, crawling on their hands and knees from one bush and tree to the next just to get inside their get high spot, which was a trailer on his moms property. She ran in his moms house to tell his mom the DEA was outside, but when he mom looked outside there wasn’t a soul around. The mom then turned and shook her head saying, “You all are making and eating them devil cookies again. Aintcha all?” My bunky said, after she calmed down she seen it was both of them hallucinating. When she went to tell her boyfriend it was just paranoia, upon opening the door to the trailer-home he  shot a hole in the door missing her head by only inches, thinking it was the cops coming to get him.

She said, “If you ever want to look into what meth really is there is a book circulating in the jail called Meth = Sorcery. Just read it, it has Satan written all over it.”

I was both intrigued and really curious what was in this drug that could possibly give two separate people the very same vision through hallucination. I knew it was evil and couldn’t take my mind off her story. A small voice inside my soul said, “SEEK THE BOOK AND BE MADE KNOWN.” I knew God wanted me to read it, but why?

Discernment through The Holy Spirit



One night, I fell asleep holding my Bible and upon waking up it was opened next to me, as if someone sat it next to me purposely to read.

It was the Gospel of John, Chapter 20 verses 24-29.  It talks about one of Jesus’s disciples, named Thomas, who didn’t believe that Jesus had risen from the dead unless he saw for himself the crucifixion holes in the Savior’s hands. One verse in particular really stood out to me.

In verse 29, after appearing to Thomas and showing him the crucifixion markings Jesus said something that convicted my heart.

Then Jesus told him, Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believe.

I realized that I was harder on myself than anyone else.For years while being down and out that was when Satan attacked the most, always whispering the past sin and making me feel like I was a lost cause. Through other people, places and circumstances, Satan used my past trials to break me down by doing what he does best, LIE.

I knew that I could be worthy,and loving because it was never hard for me to love another, it was just hard for me to love myself. But if Jesus loved me then I knew I was worth loving myself it was just that I didn’t believe in me because I didn’t like who I was or what I stood for . . . at least right then.

I  prayed, “Lord Jesus, help me understand why all this has happened in my life, the sexual and physical abuse as a child, beatings from different men who laid hands on me, but most of all why I grew up always feeling unloved and unwanted. Most of all Jesus help me BELIEVE. Help me accept what is truth and know the difference of what a lie really is.  Please, Lord, help me trust again . . . if not in myself or others but in you and what you have planned for the rest of my life.”

I immediately felt better and I knew deep down that Jesus really was who He said He was. Deep, deep down to my inner soul I knew He truly does loved me, the good and the bad.